Corporate World and all..

Someone once told me *in other to learn patience you must learn to count to at least 10 before you react. *

For an impulsive person like me it’s a challenge; I always have an opinion. I am a woman of many words (in my defense I think I make a lot of sense at least if you understand my gibberish then I am content)

I have struggled with listening before speaking, not judging a book by the cover, Generally, profiling people before they get comfy and sometimes jumping into conclusions ( i still struggle with the conclusions) . I like to believe after all the books I have read I have people skills.

But as I walked away yesterday after I felt wronged and angered by a man I heard a scripture in my heart: 

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood but against......................

So my anger, my battle wasn't against the man or a man, or the corporate world or the artificial slavery, or the Government, but it is against, poverty, lack of creativeness, ineptitude, hatred, prejudice, fear, insecurity, idolatry, hero worship and envy, lack of ambition, etc

This is what drives the work place, the corporate world is filled with snitching, back biting, toe stepping, benching, overtaking etc, its dirty the fancy things in it are our suits and paychecks, not everyone can say the pay is commiserate to the torture.The constant need to prove oneself and value, the restriction and inhibition, the ass licking alone can drive one insane. 


The idea is to be one's owns boss but in a third country like ours it is a long shot (but it is a shot)

Someone once told me *sometimes you have to do what you don’t like so one day you will be able to do what you like*

So after I walked away from the battle field to re-strategise ,I played a game time rage (it involves shooting the enemy) you play it with artificial guns but it works like therapy, killing those enemies gave a sense of victory...


i am no longer angry because i am a woman with a plan, i have words in my heart and i open  my mouth now and i speak because words dont die, so i say to these things be gone, you trouble me no more from today my today will always be better than my yesterday, nothing that comes my way is impossible there is always a solution, i am a person who never fails , i belong to a kingdom which its inhabitants abound in every-good thing. i take a stand against pettiness, jealousy, gossip, back-bitting, loathing and envy and whatever form of deceit these things wear this day .. you have no home with me.


i am victorious before the battles begin, i am a wonder worker, i am an attraction to greatness and one day my name will hang on plenty walls, i may even name one 
Pully's Mall,or hall and i will stand tall in all for now cause i see more than the mall, i see so much more.


Right now, today , i am punching the clock . Someday, i will own the clock, tick-tock here i come , this wont stop till i get to the top.

Dear Future Husband...

Dear Future Husband,

unlike many posts this is no toast, if you have been following me on twitter you would have seen my #dearfuturehusband my little statements to you but this is a new beginning because im brand new.

a friend of mine once said to me " you have to make do with your own reality" it seemed harsh but it was in relation to you finding me and me knowing its you.

my dear , brace yourself : the quest for true love has been long and hard and im sorry for not entering the Covent to wait for you but even then how was i to know for a fact that  you would find me?  and that you were not the cute boy next door? my first kiss i wish it had been with you but how could i have known? yes, i knew( who am i kidding?)i would never have kissed another if i was so sure as i am now that your real the thought alone seems like betrayal but you must  know* faith without works is dead* if i never tried to love then how could i know that what i feel now is real?

my dear , my requirements for you has never been TBH ( tall black and handsome ) not a bad requirement  my sister and several other friends wants this, im not saying your not good looking man but baby, your no model by world standards but your perfect for me. your eyes see through my soul, and your lips taste like peanut butter sandwiches, when you hold me in your arms i feel safe, we look good together, im a ten and maybe someday i will end up bigger or smaller, but today with my funny mannerisms and my over-analytical mind you are the one for me.. least i forget or you do you smell like #davidoff cool water in the mornings and when it comes to bedside manners your the best ..no scary nose picking or chewing the cud in your sleep ( men do that)

with the kids your great, i think they love you more than me but im the disciplinarian amongst the two of us so i will live, then the way you go about spinning money out of every  thing you do ( i know we are blessed) you have planned well but too be fair i make us a good team with my own thing by the side ..

i love the way i love you and today more than ever i declare my love for you in front of the world of strangers because i love...

i read some where " you must stay drunk on writing so reality does not destroy you" i dont want to ever look at all those unhappy couples and think it will happen to us this love letter is a reminder 20,30,40 years from now our kids will read this and believe in what i do now that  love exists and is no myth.

i know your so close now and the waiting is almost over, in my reality you might be my crazy colleague, or the guy down the street that always says hi to me with glimmer in his eyes, you may be the pharmacist near my bustop that takes pictures of me when im not looking, you maybe the guy who saw my picture on Facebook and fell in love ( like the boys2men song girl in the life magazine) you maybe a friend from university who has always been there somehow or you maybe the new guy who comes at me at the supermarket , or at the movies...but now more than ever i feel you near and i wait for the day we will graze the hay..for every kiss i kissed a stranger i will kiss you a million more, stay true to me because i am real and i will see you soon..

baby, i promised a friend i would stop all the love posts but that wont be the woman your ending up with , will it? some other friend said " people who always talk about love are fake" one opinion! i believe we get what we speak! so im writing you this letter come home to me baby, come home...

cyber space

privacy

sounds tasty

but its no meal,

neither a wound that can heal,

or wool to be reeled,

we steal from our time,

to idle away

with haste in cyber space,

cyber space

space all the same

foreign with dots as its origin,

like pirates,

we no longer meet in private,

or on street corners,

in the dark,

we log online,

spill our guts to strangers,

we place our hearts,

on twitter,

on facebook,

spread our lives triumph in albums,

our career goals, 

on linked in,

with a little google,

you see through our hood,

communication sets us in the mood,

with webinar,

we cant do long distance relationships ,

the old fashion way to wait,

we do crazy stuff on cyber space,

whats the great haste?

where sholud we meet our mate?

and how should we date?

in open or in private?

in space or cyber space?

virtual or reality?

whats the haste?

lets do these things to taste?

lets wait?

lets kick theses invaders back to space,

lets take a walk to any  place,

have dinner in cafe,

lets talk,

lets migrate from this place called cyber space.

who am i kidding?

we are no longer in eden?

hook up in haste my mates

with no distaste for cyber space

its a new place,

a clean slate,

lets find our mates..

lets inhale on cyber space !!

After several Toasts..

After several posts
and different toasts
excluding Nipost
here i am
and here we are
it seems clear
hes here
should i steer ahead
see where this heads
my head says
"i have to figure him out"
"i have to figure me out"
"i have to figure this out"
see where this heads
is he the one
am i the one
are we in love
is this a job
several posts
different toasts
here i am
here we are
not wanting to let anyone down
not planning to run this one out
but yet
here i am
here we are
is this the one
is he the one
someone help me on this one
lord, help me see,
here my plea
show my heart the truth you see