Dear Future Husband...

Dear Future Husband,

unlike many posts this is no toast, if you have been following me on twitter you would have seen my #dearfuturehusband my little statements to you but this is a new beginning because im brand new.

a friend of mine once said to me " you have to make do with your own reality" it seemed harsh but it was in relation to you finding me and me knowing its you.

my dear , brace yourself : the quest for true love has been long and hard and im sorry for not entering the Covent to wait for you but even then how was i to know for a fact that  you would find me?  and that you were not the cute boy next door? my first kiss i wish it had been with you but how could i have known? yes, i knew( who am i kidding?)i would never have kissed another if i was so sure as i am now that your real the thought alone seems like betrayal but you must  know* faith without works is dead* if i never tried to love then how could i know that what i feel now is real?

my dear , my requirements for you has never been TBH ( tall black and handsome ) not a bad requirement  my sister and several other friends wants this, im not saying your not good looking man but baby, your no model by world standards but your perfect for me. your eyes see through my soul, and your lips taste like peanut butter sandwiches, when you hold me in your arms i feel safe, we look good together, im a ten and maybe someday i will end up bigger or smaller, but today with my funny mannerisms and my over-analytical mind you are the one for me.. least i forget or you do you smell like #davidoff cool water in the mornings and when it comes to bedside manners your the best ..no scary nose picking or chewing the cud in your sleep ( men do that)

with the kids your great, i think they love you more than me but im the disciplinarian amongst the two of us so i will live, then the way you go about spinning money out of every  thing you do ( i know we are blessed) you have planned well but too be fair i make us a good team with my own thing by the side ..

i love the way i love you and today more than ever i declare my love for you in front of the world of strangers because i love...

i read some where " you must stay drunk on writing so reality does not destroy you" i dont want to ever look at all those unhappy couples and think it will happen to us this love letter is a reminder 20,30,40 years from now our kids will read this and believe in what i do now that  love exists and is no myth.

i know your so close now and the waiting is almost over, in my reality you might be my crazy colleague, or the guy down the street that always says hi to me with glimmer in his eyes, you may be the pharmacist near my bustop that takes pictures of me when im not looking, you maybe the guy who saw my picture on Facebook and fell in love ( like the boys2men song girl in the life magazine) you maybe a friend from university who has always been there somehow or you maybe the new guy who comes at me at the supermarket , or at the movies...but now more than ever i feel you near and i wait for the day we will graze the hay..for every kiss i kissed a stranger i will kiss you a million more, stay true to me because i am real and i will see you soon..

baby, i promised a friend i would stop all the love posts but that wont be the woman your ending up with , will it? some other friend said " people who always talk about love are fake" one opinion! i believe we get what we speak! so im writing you this letter come home to me baby, come home...