Tuesday, July 31, 2012

LETTING GO...


Hey Miss Sugar Plum,

Do you know I have a Forced habit?  Every morning, I  check my phone when I get up to see if you pinged me good morning, if not I check if you are online Facebook at sometime in the day. I still wont reach out to you but I keep waiting for your call. Yet I say I am letting you go, whom am I fooling? No one, I am doing nothing to keep you.

I am letting you go because I don’t reach out to hug you, or pick up my phone to call you. I spy on you on the internet but everyone internet stalks an ex for a little while till someone new comes along. Its healthy till its not.

I am letting you go because I love you does not change what is broken and I can’t fix this. I can’t love you forever because if we fix this then we remain misfits.

I am done trying to hope I can make forever with you because I love you I know you deserve forever with someone-else who can love you throughout the bad and good tides like no one else. I am tired of the fighting and the backbiting I am coming out to say I am letting you go.

I can’t fix this and I don’t want to. This is too hard love shouldn’t make me frown. Make me hide my head in a crowd. Love should make me proud. 

I am letting you go... I hope you find the one who wont dim your shine and wont lie awake and think about escape.

Sincerely,

Mr. Xox.


Dear Mr Xox,

Good for you and your forced habit, why are you waiting for my calls? You need to not feel guilty about this right? You are guilty. You jumped in and now you cant stay through thick and thin.

Its all right baby, I forgive you. I wish you well and you find the love the one that wont make you run. (Ha-ha you wish!!!!) Go rot in hell.

Why did it take you so long to realize this was all wrong and you didn’t want forever with me? Why are you saying you love me and yet you are leaving me? this is so confusing.

Anyway, good luck and good riddance I deserve a man who is brave enough to say to my face what went wrong, instead of going up and down and misbehaving trying to find a way to escape. You are a coward and this is untoward.

Goodbye my friend, Goodbye.

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